flee, chase

the documentary, Unknown White Male, is about a man who woke up one morning with total amnesia.  apparently, when this happens to someone they enter a fugue state - the period of time when they have no memories, no identity, and no cognitive awareness of it.  they are wiped clean.  they've never fallen in love, been hurt, felt snow or danced.  they have no sense of humor, no identifying personality at all.  people in this state are prone to wandering and if they go far enough for long enough, they end up creating a new life, completely unaware of their previous existence.

i've been waking up from dreams lately feeling fugal.  the kind of dreams where you experience insane depths of emotion and wake up unable to identify your life.  i manage to go about my day, but i feel like an understudy marking the part, waiting to return to my real life.

the images here and in the last few posts seem to reflect this trend.  the feeling of being stuck and unstuck all at once.